Denial doesn’t solve anything

In my last post I mentioned I was dealing with a bone infection. Well, here’s the deal: about four months ago I picked a little bit of skin off a callous on the bottom of my right big toe. Because I’m diabetic it never healed. February brought two visits to the urgent care clinic, a visit with a podiatrist, and the accompanying rounds of antibiotics. In April, after moving here to Colorado, I engaged a new podiatrist who immediately sent me to the Advanced Wound Care Clinic.

Last Tuesday the doctor broke the news that, while the wound was healing, the bone infection was spreading. On Thursday, the toe was amputated.

I’ve been in denial about diabetes since I was diagnosed almost ten years ago. Now there’s no denying it; every time I look down at my right foot I’m reminded not only of my diabetes, but my denial. Ignoring a problem doesn’t solve anything. The progression of the disease won’t wait until I come to terms with it.

What’s done is done. Here I am, nine toes and all. Time to get to work.

I’m down two pounds from last week, weighing in at 266.5 this morning.

Progress Report – 2/10/2017

Well, I stopped the bleeding and started moving in the right direction this week. I’m down 4.9 pounds, which puts me at 262.1. This week my goal is to get back to my lowest point in this journey – 259.5 pounds. That’s just 2.6 pounds, or just over half of what I did this week!

My main struggle of late is mindless eating. I’ll stop at McDonald’s on the way home, or cook up a frozen pizza without even thinking about it. Then I’ll get home, eat, then think “Wait a minute, wasn’t I going to bake some chicken and veggies tonight?” I need to be more mindful and present in the moment. More to come on this topic next week.

How is everyone else doing on their journeys toward healthy living? Please share, and let’s encourage each other!

Progress Report – 2/3/2017

Not good news today, folks. I’m up another pound, weighing in at 267. I’m super stressed about my job (or lack thereof), interviews, moving, and ridiculous policy regarding the payout of my severance package. So, I’ve eaten a lot this week.

If you want to offer some encouragement or accountability, please feel free! I could use some reminders when I’m back in the midst of “the suck” next week.

Thanks!