Welp, it’s been a rough couple of months health-wise! I’ve gained 12 pounds (up to 265 from 253). I’ve been in a relationship, so plenty of dates out at restaurants, drinks, and homemade desserts. So, yesterday I jumped back into keto, and, wouldn’t you know it, the gal broke up with me this morning. Now, the great thing about this is I generally don’t eat a ton after a breakup, so hopefully I’ll get some of those lbs off! But, this is also a great opportunity to practice what I’ve learned about avoiding emotional eating episodes and channeling my emotion into something healthy. This afternoon’s plan: take Walter the Wonder Pup on a nice, long walk through the park.
What are your preferred methods for dealing with emotion in a healthy way?
I’m happy to report it was a great week! While my weight went up a smidge – up .7 pounds to 268.8 – I stayed true to my low carb eating plan, started meeting with a nutritionist, and saw my fasting blood sugars continue to fall. I’m encouraged! This week I’d like to see my weight reflect my effort, so I’ll identify a couple key changes to make. The biggest change I’ll be making is at the request of my nutritionist – begin focusing on nourishing foods. Sure, I didn’t eat many carbs this week, but most of what I did eat was cheap and refined (i.e. plenty of cheap cheese, bacon, and ground meat). This weekend I’ll take a field trip to Whole Foods to begin familiarizing myself with nourishing, filling foods, raised ethically and healthily. I’m pretty darn excited to see what I find!
I’ve also decided I’d like to implement a “moderate ketogenic” diet. This means I’ll try to keep my daily carb intake below 50g, rather than the strict keto goal of 30g. I believe this will allow me to integrate a few carb-containing foods into my day, resulting in fewer cravings and more overall satisfaction.
In other news, yesterday I took my first walk in over a month! I’ve had to do my best to stay off my foot since the surgery, but this week my doctor said I could start putting some weight on it from time to time. So, I leashed up my new dog Walter (!!!) and explored my apartment complex. We were out for about a half hour, and we walked maybe a half-mile (partly due to my foot, and partly due to Walter’s ridiculous sniffing of everything). But, we were outside enjoying the day.
Okay, the allotted period of toe mourning is over. It’s time to get started on some major life changes. I mean, I didn’t wait until I posted this to make any changes to my diet and overall lifestyle. But, today, May 8th, is the day my new life begins. Low carb, low calorie, and a renewed focus on lowering my a1c level. I’m no longer in denial. I mean, I can’t take a step without being reminded of my commitment. That’s right, I’m not going all “woe is me” on the whole toe thing. Nope. It’s now a reminder of my commitment to health and living a long, active, and fruitful life.
One thing I’ve learned over the last six months or so is the whole keto thing is a lot more difficult to sustain than I thought it would be. I tend to go all-in with diets, and, well, that’s never worked. So, I’ve started up a low-carb-but-not-quite-keto plan for eating. I’d love to go full-on keto, but I need to be realistic. Also, fast food is out. I’ve been successful with that in the past, and I’ve gotten pretty relaxed with that lately.
So, there you have it. Expect to see weekly progress reports on Fridays again!
I’ve been MIA for a few weeks, and that’s no bueno. Mainly, I’ve been stressed and busy. I’ve been looking for jobs in different states, exploring moving options, and trying to figure out how to pick up and move to a new area. Most recently, I found out my job is being eliminated, effective the last week of February.
So yeah, you could say I’ve had a bit on my mind.
All in all, I’m up to 266 pounds, a gain of 6.5 over the last 3 weeks. Not as bad as it could have been, but certainly not good.
Next week I’ll be traveling to the Denver area for a day of interviews, so my meal planning will hit a bit of a snag. The plan is to get back to the keto lifestyle starting now.
I weighed in at 260.4 this morning, adding up to a 1.9 pound loss. Not bad for a week that started out with a 3-day holiday weekend, capped off with the annual Japanese sushi feast. Over the last 4 days I’ve averaged about 50g of carbs per day. That’s twice my daily target. It’s still within targets for ketogenesis, but it’s not optimal. So, I need to tighten that up this week.
That’s what I’m shooting for. It’s going to take some serious work. It also means that, in the short-term, I won’t be focusing too much on IF. I want to ensure I have enough energy and motivation to navigate the fat adaption process.
Time for brutal feedback. What do you think? Is this sustainable? Do you want to join me? Let’s take control of 2017!
Remember that whole “It’s a holiday, not a holiweek” thing? Yeah, I was just kidding.
I tipped the scale at 262.3 this morning, which is a gain of 2.8 pounds. Given my complete lack of keto discipline this week, I’d say that’s not too bad. I mean, a gain is never good, but I also try not to have crazy expectations of myself during the holidays.
This weekend I’ll be weaning myself off the high-carb foods, and, after the annual New Year’s Day Japanese feast on Sunday with some close family friends, I’m back on a rigid keto plan.
Eating a large amount of carbs this week has shown me a few things:
I have a lot more mental clarity when I’m eating keto
I sleep better when I’m on keto
I’m more productive when I’m on keto
I just plain ‘ol feel better when I’m on keto
I genuinely miss the way I feel when I’m sticking to my plan. So, it’s time to get that feeling back.
So, I basically lost a baby this week. 7.4 pounds. Wow.
This morning I weighed in at 262.1 pounds, marking my lowest weight since I started this journey, and just 2.1 pounds away from my lowest weight in over 4 years.
What’s remarkable about this isn’t the amount of weight I lost – though it’s ridiculous and I’m still kind of shocked – but the fact that it came during one of the most emotional weeks in recent memory. I was on the verge of a nervous breakdown on Monday, and I usually end up binging when I’m highly emotional. The fact I not only didn’t binge, but came through with a huge loss, is amazing to me. I don’t think I’ve ever avoided a binge in an intense situation like that.
A friend of mine recently made an observation about my weight loss journey: “You’ve never gone more than 5-8 days without cheating.”
I’ve noticed a rhythm in my determination – 1 week on, 1 week off. I have a fantastic week like last week, losing over 6 pounds, and follow it up with a bad week, gaining almost 4 of them back. These are generally driven by my emotions (just ask my therapist).
The thing is, I’m trying as hard as I can (or at least as hard as I think I can, but that’s a topic for another post). So, something else is missing. Is it a spiritual component? Is it an aspect of my core character that needs work? I honestly have no idea. But I know I need to figure it out.
Here’s what I know about my journey right now:
I can do it.
I have already done it.
I have the potential to make a ridiculous amount of progress in a relatively small amount of time (6 pounds in a week is borderline Biggest Loser territory!).
I have an amazing group of extremely supportive friends checking in on me every day.
I have a fantastic group of readers here on the blog who interact with and encourage me on this journey.
My experiences can help other get fired up about their own journeys.
There’s so much more to this blog than my own success or failure. This isn’t a solo project. We’re all part of this. I don’t want to report a weight gain to you guys. And I don’t want this blog to go dark for weeks on end because I’m ashamed by my lack of progress.
So, what are we doing to tackle the issues in our lives? It’s Monday, so let’s kick the week off well!
This post is different, because I really have no idea what I’m talking about. How’s that for an opening line to draw you in?
Virtually everyone on any sort of structured eating plan recommends some type of cheating. But what constitutes a “cheat”? What are the parameters? Do I throw caution to the wind and eat as many pizzas as possible? Is it a cheat meal or a cheat day?
I have so many questions!
So, do you allow yourself a cheat meal? A cheat day? What’s your favorite cheat food? How often do you cheat?