Beginning again

Okay, the allotted period of toe mourning is over. It’s time to get started on some major life changes. I mean, I didn’t wait until I posted this to make any changes to my diet and overall lifestyle. But, today, May 8th, is the day my new life begins. Low carb, low calorie, and a renewed focus on lowering my a1c level. I’m no longer in denial. I mean, I can’t take a step without being reminded of my commitment. That’s right, I’m not going all “woe is me” on the whole toe thing. Nope. It’s now a reminder of my commitment to health and living a long, active, and fruitful life.

One thing I’ve learned over the last six months or so is the whole keto thing is a lot more difficult to sustain than I thought it would be. I tend to go all-in with diets, and, well, that’s never worked. So, I’ve started up a low-carb-but-not-quite-keto plan for eating. I’d love to go full-on keto, but I need to be realistic. Also, fast food is out. I’ve been successful with that in the past, and I’ve gotten pretty relaxed with that lately.

So, there you have it. Expect to see weekly progress reports on Fridays again!

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No, I’m not dead

Holy cow, where do I start? Since I last posted, life has pretty much been the same. I mean, apart from packing up my life and moving to Colorado, a new job… oh, and the bone infection in my foot. So yeah, pretty standard.

I weighed in at 268.5 pounds this morning, which, honestly, isn’t all that bad, considering the complete upheaval of my life and ensuing injury that has rendered me all but immobile. The recovery for the foot injury will take another 6 weeks or so, and then I’m heading straight to the mountains for a hike.

I haven’t been on keto for more than a few days at any given time, so I’d do well to be a bit more disciplined with that.

Any who, that’s the update I’ve got for today. More to come!

Progress Report – 2/10/2017

Well, I stopped the bleeding and started moving in the right direction this week. I’m down 4.9 pounds, which puts me at 262.1. This week my goal is to get back to my lowest point in this journey – 259.5 pounds. That’s just 2.6 pounds, or just over half of what I did this week!

My main struggle of late is mindless eating. I’ll stop at McDonald’s on the way home, or cook up a frozen pizza without even thinking about it. Then I’ll get home, eat, then think “Wait a minute, wasn’t I going to bake some chicken and veggies tonight?” I need to be more mindful and present in the moment. More to come on this topic next week.

How is everyone else doing on their journeys toward healthy living? Please share, and let’s encourage each other!

Progress Report – 1/27/2017

“It’s quiet… too quiet…”

I’ve been MIA for a few weeks, and that’s no bueno. Mainly, I’ve been stressed and busy. I’ve been looking for jobs in different states, exploring moving options, and trying to figure out how to pick up and move to a new area. Most recently, I found out my job is being eliminated, effective the last week of February.

So yeah, you could say I’ve had a bit on my mind.

All in all, I’m up to 266 pounds, a gain of 6.5 over the last 3 weeks. Not as bad as it could have been, but certainly not good.

Next week I’ll be traveling to the Denver area for a day of interviews, so my meal planning will hit a bit of a snag. The plan is to get back to the keto lifestyle starting now.

Progress Report – 1/6/2017

I weighed in at 260.4 this morning, adding up to a 1.9 pound loss. Not bad for a week that started out with a 3-day holiday weekend, capped off with the annual Japanese sushi feast. Over the last 4 days I’ve averaged about 50g of carbs per day. That’s twice my daily target. It’s still within targets for ketogenesis, but it’s not optimal. So, I need to tighten that up this week.

That’s all I got. Have a fantastic weekend!

Progress Report – 12/30/2016

Remember that whole “It’s a holiday, not a holiweek” thing? Yeah, I was just kidding.

I tipped the scale at 262.3 this morning, which is a gain of 2.8 pounds. Given my complete lack of keto discipline this week, I’d say that’s not too bad. I mean, a gain is never good, but I also try not to have crazy expectations of myself during the holidays.

This weekend I’ll be weaning myself off the high-carb foods, and, after the annual New Year’s Day Japanese feast on Sunday with some close family friends, I’m back on a rigid keto plan.

Eating a large amount of carbs this week has shown me a few things:

  • I have a lot more mental clarity when I’m eating keto
  • I sleep better when I’m on keto
  • I’m more productive when I’m on keto
  • I just plain ‘ol feel better when I’m on keto

I genuinely miss the way I feel when I’m sticking to my plan. So, it’s time to get that feeling back.

Happy New Year, everyone!

Progress Report – 12/23/2016

After an emotional roller coaster of a week, I’m down 2.6 pounds to 259.5. Hello 250s! The last time I can remember weighing in lower than 260 was in 2007. That’s almost a decade ago!

I’m heading home to Southern California for the weekend to celebrate Christmas with my family. We have a couple meal traditions, some candy in the stockings, and a gift certificate to The Cheesecake Factory we’ll be using on Christmas Eve. So, I’m going to take a bit of a break from the diet restrictions. I won’t go nuts, but there’s no way I’m skipping mom’s cooking, especially on Christmas morning!

I’ll be back on Tuesday, and, after a work team breakfast at Key’s Cafe, it’s back to the grind. My focus when I return will be on becoming fully fat-adapted. I haven’t gone more than 8 days sticking to the keto plan, and I want to see what’s possible if I do. The plan is to stick to a fully keto diet – no cheating! – for 6 weeks, then begin reintroducing certain carb-rich foods (very similar to the Whole 30 plan). Mainly, I want to see how my blood glucose levels react to certain foods, and see if I can integrate them into my diet without my those levels spiking.

My emphasis here is on living a healthy lifestyle. The diet is a bit extreme, and I don’t plan to stay 100% keto for the rest of my life. However, I want to exercise the self control necessary to complete these experiments, knowing they’ll lead to a more fulfilling, healthy life. I’m also hoping I drop some serious weight at the same time!

Over the last 3 months I’ve dropped 32.5 pounds. That’s nuts. I can’t wait to see what 2017 will bring!

Progress Report – 12/16/2016

So, I basically lost a baby this week. 7.4 pounds. Wow.

This morning I weighed in at 262.1 pounds, marking my lowest weight since I started this journey, and just 2.1 pounds away from my lowest weight in over 4 years.

What’s remarkable about this isn’t the amount of weight I lost – though it’s ridiculous and I’m still kind of shocked – but the fact that it came during one of the most emotional weeks in recent memory. I was on the verge of a nervous breakdown on Monday, and I usually end up binging when I’m highly emotional. The fact I not only didn’t binge, but came through with a huge loss, is amazing to me. I don’t think I’ve ever avoided a binge in an intense situation like that.

I’m pumped!

Perseverance?

A friend of mine recently made an observation about my weight loss journey: “You’ve never gone more than 5-8 days without cheating.”

I’ve noticed a rhythm in my determination – 1 week on, 1 week off. I have a fantastic week like last week, losing over 6 pounds, and follow it up with a bad week, gaining almost 4 of them back. These are generally driven by my emotions (just ask my therapist).

The thing is, I’m trying as hard as I can (or at least as hard as I think I can, but that’s a topic for another post). So, something else is missing. Is it a spiritual component? Is it an aspect of my core character that needs work? I honestly have no idea. But I know I need to figure it out.

Here’s what I know about my journey right now:

  • can do it.
  • I have already done it.
  • I have the potential to make a ridiculous amount of progress in a relatively small amount of time (6 pounds in a week is borderline Biggest Loser territory!).
  • I have an amazing group of extremely supportive friends checking in on me every day.
  • I have a fantastic group of readers here on the blog who interact with and encourage me on this journey.
  • My experiences can help other get fired up about their own journeys.

There’s so much more to this blog than my own success or failure. This isn’t a solo project. We’re all part of this. I don’t want to report a weight gain to you guys. And I don’t want this blog to go dark for weeks on end because I’m ashamed by my lack of progress.

So, what are we doing to tackle the issues in our lives? It’s Monday, so let’s kick the week off well!

Progress Report – 12/9/2016

Two steps forward, one step back. Or, in this case, 1.22 steps back. I’m up 3.8 pounds to 269.5. I had an extremely difficult week emotionally. I can’t seem to figure out how to stick to the plan in the midst of deep depression. Part of the problem is the fact the processed, unhealthy food feeds the depression chemically, then starts a spiral of shame that feeds the depression emotionally. I honestly don’t know how to fight this in the moment. In fact, in the moment, I don’t even care. I need to figure out how to keep the big picture in mind, rather than succumb to the thoughts scrolling through my brain – “Nothing matters. You’re just going to die anyway, why not enjoy the ride?”

I know this isn’t a very fun post. Fun is about the furthest thing from my mind right now. But, today I’m choosing to bring my feelings into the light, sharing my heart with this online community, and hoping for better days to come.